Writing 10 - Healthy Living 0

All-in-all I'm quite satisfied with last week's professional efforts. My deadlines were met, some of my history articles from Suite101 have been reprinted, a homeschooling website published an article I wrote on teaching history - yup, things were pretty good …but we wont cheer too loudly in case "they" hear! 

Personally, however, I am floundering! Despite the "it will go away" assurances from my midwives last year, my gestational diabetes hasn't "gone away", instead it has matured into Type B diabetes, and I am supposed to lose weight. Well, you know how it is when you work at home - if you manage to get the baby asleep, you rush around doing chores, hoping desperately to grab ten minutes at your desk before the nap ends, and food intake is usually whatever you can grab out of the fridge and eat whilst tidying up or putting a load of laundry in the machine. Every night I go to bed feeling such a failure that I can't discipline myself to eat healthier and resolve to do better the next day, but it isn't working yet. Exercise is what I really need to do, and I did buy a video, but by the time I get through the 10 minute warm-up Jake is already awake and that's it. If anyone knows of a "brief-spurts-for-busy-moms exercise video, please email me direct! I've joined a website offering motivation for healthy living (herhealthychoices.com) and I'm managing to drink plenty of water, I just wish I could do so good on the rest of it. I guess it would help if I had enough energy left at the end of the day to set some realistic healthy living goals right? I'll get there eventually just watch this space!

Jake's health has been a constant problem since he was born. I've been battling with condescending doctors who have told me that there's nothing wrong with him, without running any tests that is - did psychic skills become part of medical training and I missed it? They see Jake for 5 minutes and despite my pleading for them to do something, I am dismissed as "over-protective" with one patronizing sigh. They are not listening to their child scream in pain every time he has to poop and it hurts. Mikael was with me last week and witnessed what was definitely the worst experience to date, and next morning phoned the Dr and told him we wanted medication to help Jake. Enough is enough! The medicine has improved things but the Drs aren't off the hook yet. If he needs meds then something is possibly wrong - you'd think with a baby born at 35 weeks they'd take it seriously wouldn't you? - and I want to find out what the cause is. It is good not to hear my baby scream but he can't take meds for the rest of his life. The Drs had better pray that there is nothing wrong with him because after being told for almost 8 months that I thought there was a problem, I wont take it quietly. An ignored mom proved right is bad enough - an ignored mom proved right who is also a writer will be their worst nightmare! 

Wishing you a productive week. 

Katie-Anne, 2001